deep stuff coming

I'm going to post a very personal poem soon.

like really personal.

like we're talking deep, raw emotions.

It's a stream of consciousness poem describing the day Sarah Kay was diagnosed with cancer in September. I want to put it out here on Christmas as a gift to me, my friends and family. It'll give you all a little insight into what we all felt that day back in September.


Who do you influence?

Who do you influence each day?

Is your influence good or bad?

Which humans that you interact with every day are influenced by your words, thoughts and attitude?

This powerful thought was shared in one of my work meetings last week. It is such a humbling thing to force yourself to think of all the people that you influence every day/week/month/year. Don't think of all the people who fawn over you and love your presence, this is much deeper than that. Think of the people you have a connection with and influence, whether they love you or hate you.

Personally, I think of my siblings, my family, my friends, co-workers, roommates and countless other relationships that I have. Some of these people I think of are older than I am, some are younger.

I have always had a goal to keep myself in situations where other can look up to me. I never want to be involved in something that would question my reputation or compromise my standards. I want to keep a good reputation that inspires others to come unto Christ.

There are so many people I have to opportunity to influence every day and I want to influence them all for GOOD!

Go out today and DO GOOD! Think of how you are viewed by others and how you can improve their thoughts about you. Influence others for GOOD! Encourage others, inspire people and love ALL the humans!


keeping Christ at the center

These past two and a half months since Sarah Kay was diagnosed with cancer have been life changing. 

There have been really good days filled with love and support and laughter. There have been long hard days filled with grief, worry and concern. But overall there has been a beautiful feeling of comfort that envelopes me at the end of every day. 

No matter how much stress overwhelms me during daily trials, there is always a peaceful comfort that comes after I pray at night (it's also totally comforting to get lots of hugs)

I feel confident in the Lord and trust in His plan. Even though this plan is so hard and sad and unexpected, it is here and we are in the midst of it all! I can't survive even one day without praying and asking for Heavenly Father's help. I am learning the importance of keeping Christ as the center of my life. 

In President Thomas S. Monson's talk, Ponder the path of thy feet, he says, 

"As we strive to place Christ at the center of our lives by learning His words, by following His teachings, and by walking in His path, He has promised to share with us the eternal life that He died to gain. There is no higher end than this, that we should choose to accept His discipline and become His disciples and do His work throughout our lives. Nothing else, no other choice we make, can make of us what He can."

That last line hit me so hard (in a good way)

"Nothing else, no other choice we make, can make of us what He can."

This is so comforting to me. Life can get crazy, really really crazy, but God knows ALL and we just gotta trust in Him.